Wednesday, June 16, 2010

He is saving us

That Will, what a treasure he is. Every day he saves us~ Sam and I from a day full of misery and sadness. He is the reason we get up in the morning and put one foot in front of the other. He will never know how much he has done for us, how lucky we are to have him in our family, how proud Jack would be of him. He is a light that William, always has been from the moment he was born. To say we love him doesn't do it justice.

I hope that he grows up to be a kind, gentle man. I hope he has a ton of children who give him the same joy he gives his dad and I each and every minute in these dark days we are in.

An Open Letter to Molly and Kate

I am so sorry your childhood was clouded by this grief. Know that your cousin Jack loved and adored you. One of his first words were "Dee" and "Olly" for both of you. How excited he would get to see you, how he loved being with you.

I am sorry that you had to experience this loss, this sadness, this tragedy. It isn't fair, it isn't nice and it isn't easy.

I hope you remember Jack and are able to share stories about him with Will, Nora and Liam. Like the time your "babies" needed a Mickey button and feeding pump. How we used to tape heart monitors to your dolls feet, just like Jack. How Kate drew pictures of Jack with "blue lips". How you believed you had a little cousin, without seeing him for 47 days. How you loved being the "big cousin".

I love you both and can't wait to see what wonderful women you grow up to be. Thank you for letting me be "aunt bee bee"... the coolest. :)

The Mission of Motherhood

"And the fundamental mission of motherhood now is the same as it always was: to nurture, protect, and instruct children, to create a home environment that enables them to learn and grow, to help them develop a heart for God and his purposes, and to send them out into the world prepared to live both fully and meaningfully."

~ Sally Clarkson

Friday, June 11, 2010

How many kids do you have?

GOt that question for the first time at swimming lessons yesterday

mash episode

moving clock to 12/16 did that really help?

Saturday, June 5, 2010

My lovely husband

Thinks we should have more kids because, "we are really good at raising them and great parents".

He is lovely.

Crash

and my biggest worry is, "will they let me take the window"

balancing raising will vs. mourning jack

Dont' want Will to live in Jack's shadow

Those clothes are getting tight on him, soon he will be in clothes that Jack never wore, go to a school Jack never attended and maybe ride in a car Jack never rode in. I know this is part of the process but I hate it.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

swimming

Today we went to the PV pool.....so sad, so depressing but put on a brave face for my sweet Will.

Felt like I was swimming in a pool of grief

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Royals game

Run around the bases? No not jjr, had to play in rocks!!