Incredibly hard, on us as individuals and us as a couple. I look at our wedding photos and wonder, what happened to those people? We were happy, in love, glad to be getting married.
Now look at us. We are both running, in different ways. Sam consumes his time with work, I numbly go through the motions, focusing on the house, Will while I decidedly don't take care of my body.
I am so sad, so lost, just missing Jack. Where is that sweet, sweet boy and how is this possible that I will never see him again. How the years will pile up and I will still not be able to see him. He suffered so.
I blem myself but what more could I have done? I stood by his bed for all tohse months willing him to get better, doing everything I thought I could do.
And even before that we did everything. His medicined was only late 3 times.
That beautiful child.
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