sad trip

On first family trip wo jjr and first trip since boston. So hard to be happy and have fun with heavy heart. Lots of reminders of jjr. Last time I was in hotel rm was fay he died. Wish I had stayed at hosp longer just to hold his hand and talk to him. I hope he feells btr now wo tubes wires etc. I physically ache for him. He would have had fun on this trip.