Oh To Have Those Problems Again

Funny how as moms our days are so intertwined with how our kiddos are doing. More so when you have a heart child, I think.

I wish that I could tell other heart moms not to worry, that things will be okay but what do I know at this point? I believed in my bones that Jack would be fine, that the trials we faced would make us stronger, that we would look back on them and think "how did we do that" when he was older. I always said that I would take no complaints from him when he was a teenager, because of what he went through as a baby and toddler. "What are you complaining about? Look at this gray hair that I got worrying over you. Now get out there and face the world!".

Oh to have those worries again, those problems. They are far better than the reality we face today~ a life without Jack.

The heart mom fear consumes you, it is all consuming! I pray that my reality is not anyone else's reality. Live in hope my friends, for YOU have nothing but hope~ right? Whatever God's plan is for you, it will come in its own time but you will face it with courage and grace as you have done these past years with your heart babies.

Jack keeps a lot of things real for me. I have to be a better person, not get caught up in the day to day crap that faces us. Oh! And the people who complain about fixable problems. I could just scream at the thought of it. :)